New years resolutions ...

What is 2012 going to bring? I hope that this year is going to be a good one. So what are my new years resolutions? I have a few. First of all, I am aiming to improve my physical condition. I hope to be able to improve my sitting balance, movement and strength. I am paralysed from the neck down, I still have not accepted that this is a permanent thing because I believe it isn't. I have had physiotherapists who have told me that I do have the potential for improvement and I choose to believe them. My New Year's resolution is to work on these things a little bit at a time. For example, sitting up for 30 seconds and building it up from there. Sometimes in my physiotherapy sessions I do standing. I aim to build this up as much as I can. The that I do on my legs the better. I am going to visit my previous physiotherapist, the one who said that I have potential. I am going to ask her to recommend to me a standing frame. This way I will be able to do standing at home with my carers. Maybe eventually I will be able to do about 15 minutes a day. I will be able to build this up more and more. Like I said, the more weight bearing I do, the better. Eventually I WILL be able to walk again. Just you watch this space.

Another New Year's resolution of mine is to stop being so depressed. I really need to cheer up and be grateful for what I do have. If I am so miserable I will not have the strength to fight to get as well as I can.I need to believe in myself more, I need to believe that I can get at least a bit more stronger. Another important thing that I need to do this year coming is acceptance. I need to realise and accept that what has happened to me has happened and that it cannot be undone. I need to realise that it is not a bad dream that I am going to be able to wake up out of it because it is reality. I need to stop blaming myself. I did not do anything to make this happen to me and I need to learn that I am not being punished for something. On the subject of blame, I need to forgive those who have let me down. Holding grudges against people is just going to make me a bitter person.

Finally another New Year's resolution is to try and help as many people as I can. I often believe that there is not much I can do that would help people with me being quadriplegic. But there is. Without tooting my own whistle I have been told that my blog helps people. So my plan is to continue with my writing. Maybe there is more that I can do to help people and I hope to learn what then things are over this next year and I hope to be able to do it.

Anyway I hope 2012 is going to be fantastic for me as well as you!